Sunday, 9 June 2013

To Love and Be Loved In Return ;)

In order to find love I offer you my suggestion
1.Turn off your brain and let your heart run the show.

2.Close your eyes and see with your heart.Let your heart listen not your ears.

3.Don't allow your brain to say too old,too young,too pretty,too ugly,too rich, too poor.

4.Don't allow your eyes to see only the physical beauty.Let your heart see the inner beauty,the true essence of beauty.

5.Don't allow your ears to be swayed with words dripping with honey and spoiled by lies.

6.Keep your heart open,allow love to come to you because like a butterfly.The harder you chase it the farther it flies.

A New Me

Have you ever had that feeling of being unwanted?You have no idea how tough life can be.How many people are going to hurt you?People say you got to be strong, but is it that easy?

It just keeps coming back.Being hurt again and again.It hurts so badly.I just wish this could’ve never happened.I guess I’m going to be punished all through my life. I’ve made mistakes to trust and love wrong ones.It’s not so easy to figure it out why was I fooled.I just wish things could be different.Stop for once.Let me be who I used to be.I miss myself.The old pictures helps me to recognize how I used to be.No one helps you out of this you yourself have to.So it’s better to be alone nobody can hurt you then.

Dreams don’t come true.Life doesn't seem to be as your perceptions and wishes.Come on let’s be honest.I’m tired of pretending.I’m tired of lies.I’m tired of everything that's going on.I’m tired of crying.I’m just…tired.

Don’t you see how hard it is?How difficult it is to make a choice. To just start again, to pretend nothing has ever happened. In reality everything’s wrong. Fairy tales are just lies. And now I feel so stupid and mad at myself.

Mad for believing.Upset for I tried to be strong but fail.It’s like a never-ending battle where nobody is on my side.I feel lost and lonely.I used to think everything was all right.Everything was under control,I felt safe. Now that I’ve opened my eyes, I can see clearly.

I thought miracles exist.I could say it’s going to be okay, but deep inside I knew it won’t. Maybe I’m not good enough. I know I’m just another person here. Probably I’m not worth it. I look at my own reflection and I don’t like what I see.I hate the change I've undergone. I hate the new me.

I’m sick of fake people.The ones who broke me.

Her only wish

Once there was a girl with a heart so pure. She brought light to the people on her shore.As bright as day she still had doubt tangled inside her never to come out.On her final plead she was given an angel to help diminish her evil.He gave her his light for that very cold night.Together they became one, a light so bright, shining through the night strong and tight.

Though the world around her started to change. People would challenge his and her fate.She stalled for a moment to think so quick. When another lady stole him and ditched.Back in the dark silence of her night she realized why she had no more light.

In the distance she saw it gleam holding another gently. Growing weaker, heart slowly dieing that distance light suddenly revived her.Realized why she was given this chance. Not to take his love away but to love him in another way.

She learned her strength her light came from him, to see him happy was her only wish.

Forget what hurt you but never forget what taught you.

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting them back together.”


Knowing how to let go of someone you love is tough, but you’re not alone if you’re holding on to the past! It’s hard to let go.Because the more we care, the greater our expectations, and the greater the disappointment if those expectations aren't met. How can we ever forget the ones we've loved the most? They became part of us, so forgetting them would be denying a part of who we are.Sometimes it’s worse (in the long run) to try to get back together. Sometimes you need to keep forging ahead, and learn to survive heartbreak.

How to Let Go of Someone You Love

Remember both the good and the bad parts of the relationship

When you’ve lost someone you love, it’s easy to focus on the great parts of your relationship and life together. But, there was a reason you broke up — maybe even several reasons! Don’t ignore the “bad” parts of the relationship and idealize the best parts…instead, keep reminding yourself that you’re letting go of the past because holding on to it isn’t good for you.

Accept that your loss may always hurt or confuse you

Some things, we never ever get over — but we can still live full, rewarding lives and achieve our goals! Part of letting go of someone you love is accepting that you may never have all the answers.

Rebuild yourself

Your losses, heartbreaks, setbacks, and disappointments have made you a different person — a better, more unique, more compassionate person! Instead of mourning what was or what could have been, start something new in your life. Think about what goals you should set for your life. Volunteer, take a solo vacation, join a new gym,join a support group, check out a new social club, quit your job, and set new life goals. Rebuild your life — set new life goals.

Accept your lack of control over other people

No matter how “good”, smart, helpful, giving, or attractive you are, you can’t control other people. If they leave you, they have their reasons…and sometimes those reasons have nothing to do with you. The sooner you accept your lack of control, the easier it’ll be to let go of someone you love.

Remember that letting go of love doesn't happen overnight

Letting go of the past isn't something you do once – and poof! You’re free, healed, and happy! Rather, letting go is a journey peppered with steps forward and steps backward, good days and bad days. I grew up with time and keep on learning new things as I proceed in my life.I learned how to love, let go, and open my heart to love again. And I've survived those heart-wrenching, gut-twisting breakups that slam you to the ground and rip you to pieces. Letting go is a process that takes time.Keeping hope alive is what one needs so BEST OF LUCK :)

Collective Conscience -Reason For Afzal Guru's execution

Months passed yet it seems just yesterday.This happens when we have lost someone dear.My mind has been in full occupation regarding the country of "Collective Conscience" ever since justice was denied. Deep within arent you hurt killing an innocent. Wasn't it enough to put an innocent behind the bars for about 13 years.Living in an unknown place,a dark wide room with no luxury no family no friends sends shiver down my spine. 

Hence there is the need to add yet another topic in our so called civics book.Does this subject need to be taught to Kashmiri kids?This subject makes us aware of the rights.Alas! But do we have any? 

We need to understand collective conscience.A state of supporting the majority' s opinion even irrespective of taking into consideration millions of facts and doubts. 

If honorable court of "Collective Conscience" can sentence an innocent then why doesn't collective conscience hold true for the fact that we Kashmiris can't withstand such diplomatic country's rule.If it comes to killing a Kashmiri then its a collective conscience of the nation and when it comes to freeing Kashmir its terrorism for the nation. 

You talk about your leaders and your respect towards them. Aren't those the same leaders who clearly mentioned that Kashmir has its own identity and authority to stand by itself.Promised to return our land on our own wish. 
If Indian govt cant handle truth why not eliminate us altogether.Silencing us by blocking every way to express our anger wont ever ease the pain we are going through. 
We as youth are double strong than you.You feel supreme by killing us.We fight unarmed and get killed.We die for truth.We raise voice.We are angrier,energetic,fearless and full of facts.We stand for our Kashmir and we will fight till our end. 


Kashmir's collective conscience is yet to be experienced,yet to be heard by the courts of India.

Saturday, 8 June 2013

Afzal Guru - Hero of Kashmiri Youth

Gloomy Saturday Morning-09/02/2013

As the sunlight struck my eyes, I begin to stretch my arms thinking to come out of my bed. Usual beginnings of my day start with searching my cell phone to check in the Facebook details. I got disappointed to find it out of sight, I could see the clock and realizing the routine has started I rushed out of my room and seeing the girls roaming in hostel corridor, all ready to attend their college day, hurried to freshen myself. Finally,
I woke up to my senses and rushed to wake my friend to follow the same steps. Instead of her morning greeting tone I heard a mourning tone      "Afzal Guru is hanged”. I hardly believed her at first and began to look for my cell phone keenly everywhere and when I got hold of it with shivering hands, I could see the Facebook updates with bitterness and mourning all around. Rest in Peace Afzal Guru followed every inspiring thought. Ask a Kashmir what’s on his mind, its Afzal Guru without a doubt.

I closed my eyes and could feel the tear. I hardly knew the man who is no more now but I can sense my heart sinking and missing its beats. I can feel his pain while being hanged. I can feel the thoughts and memories colliding his mind in that second of murder. Nothing can be done to save him as he has been murdered but he will always remain alive in every heart and mind of a Kashmiri. Yet again I realized life is too short to indulge in futuristic planning, to plan about your living and your family, to have expectations and get hurt.

I don’t know much about Kashmir's history but what I could know is the phase of distress and pain. Born in 90s, I hardly know anything about the happenings in my State. I hardly had an idea about the sufferings we have faced. Every time once in a while I regret of being born in a country of brutality and inhumanity especially towards my State.  As I grew up to maturity I could recollect the distress and pain we have been through.

If you can feel something right now is the pain of a man who was denied fair trail, who was snatched from his family, who had an unaccomplished dream and wanted to see his son grow into that dream, to fight injustice, to be known to world as an innocent Kashmiri. The story of Mohammed Afzal has enraged us because his story is our story too. It’s not only he who died its millions of Kashmiri Muslim hearts that died with him. We have always been a miscarriage of justice, and even if we protest, we do not expect justice. We have lived through too much brutality to believe in their justice any more. We want our own existence.

His words remain engraved in our hearts: "Kashmir has everything that you don’t want to see in a civilized nation. They breathe torture. Inhale injustice. Even if they kill me for no crime of mine, it would be because they cannot stand the truth." ~ Mohammad Afzal Guru

Tragic part of my Nation - Kashmir Sufferings

Ask a mother who lost her son.Ask a wife who lost her husband.Ask a child who lost his father.Ask a sister who lost her brother.Ask a youth who lost his friend.They don't have a reason to love the country they belong to.

As India celebrates its 65 years of independence and The Prime Minister unfolds the flag with a promise that his government intents on fighting corruption.He says our country has achieved much, traveled rapidly on the path of development and achieved success in many areas. However, I am also well aware that a lot remains to be done. We have to banish poverty and illiteracy from our country. We have to provide the common man with access to improved health services. We have to provide employment opportunities to each one of our youth.And yet he forgets what is to be done for Kashmir which doesn't cry because of poverty, illiteracy.It's pain is much greater than all of these.

Kashmir cries for peace,its recognition all over the world as a part of the country and not be treated as terrorist or being a cause of terrorism worldwide,We all agree that there are human rights violations in Kashmir?I would like to ask our rulers that take so much responsibility in ruling us-Are not you and your political colleagues yet satisfied with a thousands of people killed?

Kashmir issue: we have lost nearly 100 thousand lives, hundreds of our sisters, mothers have been molested, thousands exiled and thousands are missing. What is the solution?When they fail to provide us with a solution the youth have a solution.

This is the reason today every youth is on street demanding AZADI.We always have been betrayed by the Government of India which failed to fulfill it's promises.We protest as a strategy by which we assert the demand of the right of self-determination.
We aren't killing the innocent souls.We aren't responsible of any uncertainty in INDIA or anywhere in the WORLD-then why are we always THE SUSPECTS.Kashmiri youth living in a so called democratic country India- why is he deployed of his rights?Even the simple rights he used to enjoy have been snatched away-Gag On SMS Services,Crackdown On E-Protestors etc.He has to suffer everyday.He has been suppressed always and will continue to if our leaders continue not paying heeds to their sufferings.

As a kid I use to be proud of my country,used to watch the Independence celebration with great enthusiasm but now I just don't care and like me every youth of Kashmir doesn't care and celebrate the day as THE BLACK DAY.We don't feel to be part of the country that doesn't consider us to be its part though it keeps on declaring us to be its integral part.

We have been traumatized and thus we don't want to be a part of India or Pakistan - we just want freedom-We want our own identity as was promised to us-we want KASHMIR to live and progress.We dont want to be suppressed or ruled over.We want PEACE.
We demand a new KASHMIR -A Better One